From Mickey Mouse to Murder

If you haven't gathered from previous blog posts-- I love being a mom. Adore it. It's what I wanted to be when I grew up (next to a teacher and a ballerina).

What I don't absolutely love -- all the children shows. As soon as the tv turns on "Mom! Can we watch bluey?" "Mom! Cant we watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse?"

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Cant we watch baby shark?! (NOOOOOO!!!!!!!! It's BANNED in my house)

Ezra likes to "dance" (stim) to Danny Go!, Wavewalker, Baby Shark, sometimes the classical intro to Peter Pan.

By the time that I actually get a second to myself to just be. alone. Or with other adults I have been known to say "I want to watch the sweariest, most off the charts, murderous craziness that we can find". Which usually equals true crime, because what is crazier than actual humans?

The pendulum must swing.

Don't worry, I get out my Baby Shark Revenge and am back to baseline hippie-eccentric mom super quick, but sometimes I just need to seee that there's something more in the world than "OH TOODLES!?"

Ezra has just recently dove into the wonderful world of super heros...this I am okay with. I have been trying to show him the live action (Especially Spiderman), to which he says "I need REAL Spidey" (the knock off show on Disney+. I oblige.

It is LOADS better than Baby Shark and it's rivals! And watching him run around the house when the TV is off yelling "HULK SMASH" and saying "mom! Look at my super powers!" while making silly gestures with his fingers is kind of a new highlight.

But my one-two days of kid free time a week has grown to something a bit more sinister. Sometimes I think: "Maybe I should paint a canvas. Maybe I should go for a drive. Maybe I should socialize??" And then I walk into my house to contemplate the endless possibilities. I see my sweatpants, I look longingly at my comforter and I can hear my mattress saying "just make a fruit bowl and come hang with me". BINGO BANGO! I'm sold.

Then I think "Comedy? Rom-com? Schitt's Creek for the 12th time?" And my hand automatically selects "true crime" and I'm a goner. Lost in the psychological world that is the absolute farther pendulum swing from anything that has rhyming words.

The pendulum must swing.